Cari attempts Youtube: Introduction: Tools of the Trade
(Part 1) www.youtube.com/watch?v=O3jdTi…
(Part 2) www.youtube.com/watch?v=U-ZZuj…
So I've already been naughty and skipped journaling in April, so I'd better get on my shit before May closes up shop. I hope my silly (Sim related) status posts are some light entertainment and proof I'm still alive XD
Okay, so since it's been almost two months since my last entry, what's to report?
Well, my cat is currently faceplant sleeping and snoring. It's funny
...Sorry, just breaking the ice XD; (Seriously though, his snoring... *dies*) So March I guess was pretty meh. I ended up getting a cold (from a coworker I believe) that plagued me for a week or so. Then almost an exact month later, I pick up ANOTHER cold from my dad. But mind you, my dad's cold was something he got from a social event and it was BAD. Like, he was hacking super bad for two weeks, bad. (Apparently he had pneumonia as a kid, so his one lung can't take a beating from infection, which must've been triggered.) I was SUPER careful while he was sick, constantly washing my hands, I even bought Lysol wipes and would rub down every knob and handle in the house, and technically I DID manage to avoid it almost the whole way through. It just snagged me near the end - but thankfully it was SUPER mellow. Like, it just came and went in less than a week. It was almost like was even the point? Lol.
Yeah, maybe not really interesting, but I make a note of this because I tend to keep track of how many times I'm sick in a year, just for reference.
So let's talk about work. My body is for most part handling it well enough. (Or at least the pain is manageable at this point. I did just work three 7 hour days in a row this week past, and I think it wasn't -too- bad.) Course, summer hours and workload is a whole different story; just have to wait and see how it turns out. Just hoping my body handles it well and I can make some decent money to make up for my lost summer last year. (Not that I didn't enjoy the two month relaxation and all the lake/beach trips!!
) I owe it to my team too.
And by team, I moreso mean my supervisors/superiors... I love the three of them and they're wonderful women. They appreciate me and my work ethic and are fabulous to work with.
Pretty much all the other girls who are underneath me (seniority wise, I mean) on the other hand? ...Not so much.
I think it started back sometime in March or so - I started picking up vibes and catching snatches of conversation. Certain attitudes seemed off putting. To this day, I'm not still 100% sure of what to believe, if I'm just reading too much into things or paranoid... but some stuff just seems too blunt to be a coincidence.
But honestly guys, I feel like I'm practically being BULLIED at work by the younger girls
It's fucking ridiculous. It's like they're either purposely being rude or excluding me from conversation. What the shit? (Okay, so I'm really bad at conversing/chatting, it's true, introversion and social anxiety do that to you - but I don't like being IGNORED. That's lousy and petty.) I'm pretty sure one of them was talking shit about me with the others (and insulting our supervisor to boot). Where the hell did this hostility even come from!?
So I don't know. It's really been driving me nuts. It hurt my feelings more in the beginning, now it's just putting me in a grumpy/tense mood when it happens. I don't know what their fucking problem is. Ranting to the hubby has helped some (he tries to make suggestions and prompts - one being that, they possibly see me as a "superior" so they're not comfortable around me and it's a weird respect thing...) Or hell, maybe they resent the fact our supervisors praise me and let me have certain perks, like getting longer hours, even on a stat holiday, and laundry shifts. But it's like, shit son, I EARNED that respect and privilege. Don't shit on me because YOU guys can't be bothered to take the job seriously! >> I'm not dumbing down MY work so YOU idiots can look better; fuck that noise.
It's kind of like my body issue, in a sense. I can't really DO anything about it; I just have to keep chugging along. I can let it fester and eat me up inside, but it won't solve anything. I'm doing what I can to grow thicker skin to their nonsense and telling myself that ultimately this crap doesn't mean anything in the grand scheme of things. Either they're not doing what I think they are, or petty bitches are just gonna be petty bitches. Sometimes it doesn't get to me, sometimes I'm gonna have a bad day :/ Life's gonna go on either way.
So the emotional drain has gotten to me some. Between that and body wangst, art continues to move very slowly and I've been enjoying the distracting fun shenanigans of Sims 2 the past couple months. (Yet my poor Tumblr is neglected - I need to fix that! My photo backlog is soooo huge OTL) I'm sorry I didn't really mention it sooner, it's just kind of sucky I've been lacking in any happy news for awhile
So I didn't want to update just to whine about my woes.
But let's end this on just that - a happy note!
Two things are coming up very soon - first off, my older brother is getting married the second week of June (first marriage in the family since mine!)
is coming up for it and will be staying for two weeks! He arrives EXACTLY a week from now
So I'm super hyped for that. I'll get to have a nice two weeks off from work (and the drama, lol) plus quality time with my fam and my hubby
Okay it's almost past my bedtime and I've got a Sunday shift awaiting me in the morning
See you guys in June!
Requests/Gifts: No/By own decision.
Art Trades: Maybe/Depends on my workload.
Commissions: Maybe/Note me for details.